More or less this post will be for me to get my life out and written for my own sake. I am not sure who normally reads my posts (especially with them so far and few between) but I know most will probably be surprised to know that my parents are now divorced. I don't want to write this post for sympathy, rather I want to write it to let everyone know how much I love both of my parents and have the up-most care and desire to have them both be happy. Unfortunately, things ended in their marriage. It has been an incredibly hard year because of all the ups, downs, and rifts along the way. But, this has also been a year where I have grown more as an individual, I have become a strong woman, no little girl anymore. My testimony of the Savior has grown immensely and my understanding of the Atonement can't be put into words. I literally have been carried through this entire last year. People that know me well have asked me several times how I can still be so happy. And it is because I have a brother, a friend, a Savior.
I have learned so much about relationships, love and marriage through watching my parents. People have continued to ask, "Does this make you scared to get married?" And honestly, it doesn't. If anything it has the quite opposite effect. All I want more than anything is to get married in the temple, sealed to a wonderful husband and prove to the world what I have taken away from my family's experience. Life is hard, and every marriage is going to have its challenges. But with two committed people, forgiveness, open communication and trust in the Lord their is no way a marriage can fail.
Sadly, marriage does not look like it will be in my near future. I just recently broke up with the boy that I have been dating the last 4 months. It ended, and I'm relieved that it did. I didn't realize how much I was emotionally getting dragged along until it was all over. I feel SO much better, words can't even describe. Through the emotional roller coaster of life I decided to buy myself a little golden retriever puppy. She loves me day in and day out. Which is exactly what I need at this point. Take a look at this dog of doom..
Dog of doom because she loves to get into EVERYTHING. Haha. But of course with her cute face I can only stay mad at her for so long. She has definitely been keeping me busy, but she is so much fun and I am so excited to keep watching her grow.
This past week has been crazy with the thought that I might be picking up and moving to St. George. I was there a couple weekends ago to go to the parade of homes. I met a designer for a huge firm down in Southern Utah and we have been emailing ever since. I have a phone interview with him the end of this week and if that goes well I will be headed down for a face to face interview with him.
The thought of quitting my four jobs here and leaving all my friends is a hard thought. But I do believe that St. George would be a good place for me to continue in life's journey and allow myself the opportunity to grow and progress more. As much as I love Logan, I am just comfortable here. I am not progressing...which in a sense means I am digressing. Which is obviously the opposite of what I want. I obviously don't know if I got the job yet, but my fingers are crossed. Even though I am beyond terrified. I know it would be a good experience for me, and one more opportunity for me to rely on the Savior.
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